LOVEratory

Welcome to this lab full of love.

When you are recovering from depression, especially Postpartum Depression, a love-lab is a good thing. But come to think about this, every woman, make that every human,  deserves access to a place like this.

A place to conduct experiments in comfort, self-care, and functional love.
An opportunity and safe space to explore, inquire, ask questions, dig, mine, feel, taste, smell, observe, sleep, rest, write, seek and find.

We will be curious, open, gentle, playful, and often, surprised.
We will post hypotheses, design experiments, collect data, analyze, and report back our findings.

This is a place for AHA moments, as well as “I should have known better” moments, to which we will respond kindly, with respect and acceptance.

Equipment and Supplies

  • Notebooks, sticky notes, sheets of paper, crayons and markers, stickers, glue,  tape: clear and duct,
  • Soft, warm blankets, cushy cushions, comfortable beds, as many pillows as you'd like
  • Bathtubs, showers, bubbles, more bubbles, salts, essential oils, soaps, lotions, things that smell good
  • Groceries, all kinds.
  • Delicious healthy foods, and some junk food too, for when we experiment with it, or have the occasional crunchsaltysweet attack.
  • Blenders, juicers, ovens, fridges
  • Tea. Herbs. Coffee if you like it. Lots of water.
  • Lights, candles, head lamps
  • Clown noses, tiaras, wings, horns, masks, glitter
  • Beakers, test tubes, and Petri Dishes might come in handy some day, but so far, none of those around. I would love to have a microscope, but don't have one yet.  Not planning on using syringes or any sort of needles in the forseeable future (unless it's the kind used with yarn or fabric, of course)
  • Lab coats not required (this scientist does her best work in PJs) but if  crisp whites makes you happy, by all means, don one.
  • Computers are not glorified, they are tolerated, but not frowned upon. That is true for any other tech tool  if it helps you explore and implement your findings, go for it.
  • Time. Attention. Sometimes money, but not too often, and not too much


Unveiling our very first experiment:

The Early-to-Bed Club

AKA: 10pm is the New Midnight

Explanation: I'm a night owl. If  I could have things my way, I'd be up all night, writing, creating, watching movies and eating popcorn with truffle salt. I'd go to bed at dawn, wake up at noon, and be utterly happy. My husband and I did that in grad-school. We'd go on morning-bedtime walks (we'd hear the birds wake up and start chirping, go for a walk, come back , brush our teeth and go to sleep) it worked marvelously. But  now we have kids. And they have school which happens in the morning, darn it. And even when there is no school, they still wake up in the morning, those munchkins, go figure (and thank goodness, right?) and let's not forget their pesky tendency to wake up during the night, sometimes multiple times.
So sleep? Not so much.
And mornings? Don't ask.

And as time moves on and I get older, I cannot function with little to no sleep (those art-school all-nighters? Those were so much fun, and now, 15 years later, they would kill me) and then there was the six-weeks-cold-from-hell. Where I couldn't breathe, and was achy all over, and all the vitamins and the OTC drugs and the oranges and garlic in the world didn't make a dent. My good doctor kept telling me I need to rest. Right.  I tried resting while the kids were in school, but there was still food to cook and groceries to buy and laundry to fold. Until I finally had this brilliant idea: can't rest more during the day?  Go for more rest at night! Simple, right? How come I didn't think of it sooner?

It took a week for the cold to take notice. I almost lost faith, but on the 7th morning of early-to-bed, I was able to breathe through my nose, joy of joys. 5 days later I still can. And it's like I'm a new person. The morning beast has been replaced by a generally decent human being who can actually smile at her loved ones.

The downside: Less writing, no new blog posts since I started this. No TV, no fiction books.

The upside: 8 hours of sleep, sometimes 9. Nasal breathing, I love it! Sickness gone (knock on wood).

The verdict: I'm hooked. Sleep might be a good addiction. One I am willing to feed.

Are we done? Not so fast. It's only been 10 days or so, the experiment is still in full swing, and progress reports will continue.

Your turn!

Think about experiments in your life: have you? Will you? Why? What?
I would love to read your thoughts and comments about all this.

Calling for partners in the early-to-bed experiment. When would you like to set a new bed-time for yourself?  How do you think it will affect you? Are you willing to try this for a week and report back? Post comments here and connect with me on twitter (I'm @yaelsaar), use the hashtag #early2bed. I'm going to post additional tools to help us stick to this new habit on the blog.

Hugs all around.

Yael.

Experiment #2

Permission to Feel what I feel.

Letting all my feelings (even the not so nice ones) be heard and run their course, without fighting them, or giving them power to rule me.

Interesting.

The idea showed up while I was  eating popcorn for breakfast.

what if I let grumpy mornings and impatient evenings be what they are and stop fighting how I feel when i feel the feelings I'd rather not have?

Can I do this without hurting my family?

Can I do this and get the important things done?

What I hope will happen:
The best case scenario will look like this: when the nasty comes up, it hurts less because I'm not fighting. when it comes up, it goes away faster, because whatever needs to be heard is heard, and can get out-of-the-way when it's done. and then it comes up less often. wouldn't that be nice?

Experiment Design:

  • For a whole week, I will be patient with my impatience and allow the grump to run its course.
  • I will soak in the bathtub with things that smell good, because I think soaking  is an effective way to be kind to myself when I feel those “not so sunny feelings”.
  • I will keep in mind that being grumpy might have an effect on the people I love. I might need to warn them. I will give them permission to experiment with me.
  • I will collect clues and take time to notice and write notes. I will share the notes here and on the blog.

That's it for now. What do you think? Do share your thoughts in the comments below. Thank you!

Yael.

Reporting back:

To say that this experiment was a success is like calling the ocean wet. It kinda mushroomed, and became a philosophy. Not quite waht I intended, but mama, quite a happy accident. I call it Permission-Based Healing. And it is the basis of that which I believe.

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2 Responses to LOVEratory
  1. […] This post was mentioned on Twitter by Lauren Hale, Yael Daphna Saar. Yael Daphna Saar said: I got2brags(feels guilty4bragging)! LOVeratory for self care experiments: http://www.ppdtojoy.com/loveratory/ + a new poem on blog #ppdchat […]

  2. Jaya the Trust Coach
    January 20, 2011 | 7:48 pm

    Yael, I just love this. I live to experiment! I’ve lately been experimenting with believing that there’s exactly enough time to do all that I need to do. This means I don’t have to fret about something else while I’m doing what I’m doing. It also means I can look into the faces that show up wherever I am right now and be astonished by their beauty. Today’s faces were amazing.

    I’m in a super-loaded 3-week period when I have a giant project on top of my usual work and my nonnegotiable mothering life (which I don’t want to negotiate), and I feel completely certain that it will all get done.

    Part of the experiment involves noticing when things come out of my mouth that are about too-much-to-do or how-will-I-ever-do-it-all? And it involves continually bringing my mind back to what’s before me. And these are practices that I love.

    It is amazing to be in a pressured time and not feel bad all the time. I’m even getting sleep! Life is so good. . . .

LOVEratory

Welcome to this lab full of love.

When you are recovering from depression, especially Postpartum Depression, a love-lab is a good thing. But come to think about this, every woman, make that every human,  deserves access to a place like this.

A place to conduct experiments in comfort, self-care, and functional love.
An opportunity and safe space to explore, inquire, ask questions, dig, mine, feel, taste, smell, observe, sleep, rest, write, seek and find.

We will be curious, open, gentle, playful, and often, surprised.
We will post hypotheses, design experiments, collect data, analyze, and report back our findings.

This is a place for AHA moments, as well as “I should have known better” moments, to which we will respond kindly, with respect and acceptance.

Equipment and Supplies

  • Notebooks, sticky notes, sheets of paper, crayons and markers, stickers, glue,  tape: clear and duct,
  • Soft, warm blankets, cushy cushions, comfortable beds, as many pillows as you'd like
  • Bathtubs, showers, bubbles, more bubbles, salts, essential oils, soaps, lotions, things that smell good
  • Groceries, all kinds.
  • Delicious healthy foods, and some junk food too, for when we experiment with it, or have the occasional crunchsaltysweet attack.
  • Blenders, juicers, ovens, fridges
  • Tea. Herbs. Coffee if you like it. Lots of water.
  • Lights, candles, head lamps
  • Clown noses, tiaras, wings, horns, masks, glitter
  • Beakers, test tubes, and Petri Dishes might come in handy some day, but so far, none of those around. I would love to have a microscope, but don't have one yet.  Not planning on using syringes or any sort of needles in the forseeable future (unless it's the kind used with yarn or fabric, of course)
  • Lab coats not required (this scientist does her best work in PJs) but if  crisp whites makes you happy, by all means, don one.
  • Computers are not glorified, they are tolerated, but not frowned upon. That is true for any other tech tool  if it helps you explore and implement your findings, go for it.
  • Time. Attention. Sometimes money, but not too often, and not too much


Unveiling our very first experiment:

The Early-to-Bed Club

AKA: 10pm is the New Midnight

Explanation: I'm a night owl. If  I could have things my way, I'd be up all night, writing, creating, watching movies and eating popcorn with truffle salt. I'd go to bed at dawn, wake up at noon, and be utterly happy. My husband and I did that in grad-school. We'd go on morning-bedtime walks (we'd hear the birds wake up and start chirping, go for a walk, come back , brush our teeth and go to sleep) it worked marvelously. But  now we have kids. And they have school which happens in the morning, darn it. And even when there is no school, they still wake up in the morning, those munchkins, go figure (and thank goodness, right?) and let's not forget their pesky tendency to wake up during the night, sometimes multiple times.
So sleep? Not so much.
And mornings? Don't ask.

And as time moves on and I get older, I cannot function with little to no sleep (those art-school all-nighters? Those were so much fun, and now, 15 years later, they would kill me) and then there was the six-weeks-cold-from-hell. Where I couldn't breathe, and was achy all over, and all the vitamins and the OTC drugs and the oranges and garlic in the world didn't make a dent. My good doctor kept telling me I need to rest. Right.  I tried resting while the kids were in school, but there was still food to cook and groceries to buy and laundry to fold. Until I finally had this brilliant idea: can't rest more during the day?  Go for more rest at night! Simple, right? How come I didn't think of it sooner?

It took a week for the cold to take notice. I almost lost faith, but on the 7th morning of early-to-bed, I was able to breathe through my nose, joy of joys. 5 days later I still can. And it's like I'm a new person. The morning beast has been replaced by a generally decent human being who can actually smile at her loved ones.

The downside: Less writing, no new blog posts since I started this. No TV, no fiction books.

The upside: 8 hours of sleep, sometimes 9. Nasal breathing, I love it! Sickness gone (knock on wood).

The verdict: I'm hooked. Sleep might be a good addiction. One I am willing to feed.

Are we done? Not so fast. It's only been 10 days or so, the experiment is still in full swing, and progress reports will continue.

Your turn!

Think about experiments in your life: have you? Will you? Why? What?
I would love to read your thoughts and comments about all this.

Calling for partners in the early-to-bed experiment. When would you like to set a new bed-time for yourself?  How do you think it will affect you? Are you willing to try this for a week and report back? Post comments here and connect with me on twitter (I'm @yaelsaar), use the hashtag #early2bed. I'm going to post additional tools to help us stick to this new habit on the blog.

Hugs all around.

Yael.

Experiment #2

Permission to Feel what I feel.

Letting all my feelings (even the not so nice ones) be heard and run their course, without fighting them, or giving them power to rule me.

Interesting.

The idea showed up while I was  eating popcorn for breakfast.

what if I let grumpy mornings and impatient evenings be what they are and stop fighting how I feel when i feel the feelings I'd rather not have?

Can I do this without hurting my family?

Can I do this and get the important things done?

What I hope will happen:
The best case scenario will look like this: when the nasty comes up, it hurts less because I'm not fighting. when it comes up, it goes away faster, because whatever needs to be heard is heard, and can get out-of-the-way when it's done. and then it comes up less often. wouldn't that be nice?

Experiment Design:

  • For a whole week, I will be patient with my impatience and allow the grump to run its course.
  • I will soak in the bathtub with things that smell good, because I think soaking  is an effective way to be kind to myself when I feel those “not so sunny feelings”.
  • I will keep in mind that being grumpy might have an effect on the people I love. I might need to warn them. I will give them permission to experiment with me.
  • I will collect clues and take time to notice and write notes. I will share the notes here and on the blog.

That's it for now. What do you think? Do share your thoughts in the comments below. Thank you!

Yael.

Reporting back:

To say that this experiment was a success is like calling the ocean wet. It kinda mushroomed, and became a philosophy. Not quite waht I intended, but mama, quite a happy accident. I call it Permission-Based Healing. And it is the basis of that which I believe.

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2 Responses to LOVEratory
  1. […] This post was mentioned on Twitter by Lauren Hale, Yael Daphna Saar. Yael Daphna Saar said: I got2brags(feels guilty4bragging)! LOVeratory for self care experiments: http://www.ppdtojoy.com/loveratory/ + a new poem on blog #ppdchat […]

  2. Jaya the Trust Coach
    January 20, 2011 | 7:48 pm

    Yael, I just love this. I live to experiment! I’ve lately been experimenting with believing that there’s exactly enough time to do all that I need to do. This means I don’t have to fret about something else while I’m doing what I’m doing. It also means I can look into the faces that show up wherever I am right now and be astonished by their beauty. Today’s faces were amazing.

    I’m in a super-loaded 3-week period when I have a giant project on top of my usual work and my nonnegotiable mothering life (which I don’t want to negotiate), and I feel completely certain that it will all get done.

    Part of the experiment involves noticing when things come out of my mouth that are about too-much-to-do or how-will-I-ever-do-it-all? And it involves continually bringing my mind back to what’s before me. And these are practices that I love.

    It is amazing to be in a pressured time and not feel bad all the time. I’m even getting sleep! Life is so good. . . .